In English
Photo Gallery
Search
This form does not yet contain any fields.
    Books that I'm reading or I have read (and like)
    • Stone's Fall: A Novel
      Stone's Fall: A Novel
      by Iain Pears

      Currently reading this book about the life and death of an English industrialist at the turn of the century. There's a lot of mystery and intrigue as the protagonist delves into the world of finance and politics. It's one of those rare books where the rich person is not the bad guy, although you are expecting him to be. Anyways, I recommend it.

    • The Prince of Mist
      The Prince of Mist
      by Carlos Ruiz Zafon

      This is a children's novel and I recommend it for ages 9-12. I enjoyed reading it as it has Zafón's all-consuming storytelling power. The story takes place in an obscure seaside village where a curse of an evil man lives on. A brother and sister who are forced to move to the small village with their family, due to a war, befriend a local boy and slowly learn about the strange events that have occured over the past decade or so. I don't want to say anymore because I'm afraid I'll give away too much of the story. This is a fantastic read on a rainy Sunday afternoon.

    • I Wish Someone Were Waiting for Me Somewhere
      I Wish Someone Were Waiting for Me Somewhere
      by Anna Gavalda

      I read Je Voudrais Que Quelqu'un M'Attende Quelque Part (the French version) when I was living in Paris several years back. I loved it. I remember I couldn't put the book down until I had read every story. I read the English version recently and thought it was just as good. They're simple yet poignant stories about the ordinary events anyone of us can encounter throughout our lives. A great book if you want to sit back and reflect on what it means to "keep on keepin' on."

    • Matters of the Heart
      Matters of the Heart
      by Danielle Steel

      Okay, so I need junk books like I need junk food. And like junk food, I usually hide away in the dark and binge -- binge-read. This one is not that bad. The thing with Danielle Steele or Mary Higgins Clark, or any of these grocery aisle authors is that you can read it to zone out. It's a better alternative than T.V. or celebrity news on the internet. Matters of the Heart is actually quite good because you care about the main character; an intriguing professional photographer who has recently struggled losing the love of her life not by death or infidelity but due to a disease. The villain, a psychologically unhealthy Irish author, an over-the-top character, but fascinating gives the story an edge. Anyways, I say read it if you want to just veg out on the weekend.

     


     

    Powered by Squarespace

    Blog

    Tuesday
    May292012

    Classic

    On my way walking home today, I heard a street musician singing this masterpiece. Of course, Elvis Presley adds another oh-la-la dimension to this song, but listening to it via youtube is just as uplifting as hearing it being sung in front of you. This piece is a classic, and perfect for a romantic summer night. :)

    It's now or never,
    come hold me tight
    Kiss me my darling,
    be mine tonight
    Tomorrow will be too late,
    it's now or never
    My love won't wait.

    When I first saw you
    with your smile so tender
    My heart was captured,
    my soul surrendered
    I'd spend a lifetime
    waiting for the right time
    Now that you're near
    the time is here at last.

    It's now or never,
    come hold me tight
    Kiss me my darling,
    be mine tonight
    Tomorrow will be too late,
    it's now or never
    My love won't wait.

    Just like a willow,
    we would cry an ocean
    If we lost true love
    and sweet devotion
    Your lips excite me,
    let your arms invite me
    For who knows when
    we'll meet again this way

    It's now or never,
    come hold me tight
    Kiss me my darling,
    be mine tonight
    Tomorrow will be too late,
    it's now or never
    My love won't wait

    Monday
    May282012

    Why men are like dogs

    Yesterday, during a discussion with one of my best friends, she mentioned that when faced with an aggressive dog one can calm him by sneezing or yawning. In fact, that's how aggressive dogs relieve the aggression in themselves. I took note of this, not because I come across a lot of aggressive dogs but I figured that one never knows.

    Maybe not that aggressive, but really cute. :)

    Anyways, I signed up for the gym this Memorial holiday weekend. For the most part, the gym is bare bones: treadmills and weights. There is no fancy spa or jazzercise class. And it looks more like a large warehouse than a sports facility.

    I signed up because I have a complex that my thighs are too big. This goes back to what my grandmother used to tell me about all the negative genes I had inherited from my grandfather's side of the family. But I bought a really cute swimsuit, and I want to look good in it. So all this combined inspired me to sign up for the gym.

    On Friday, a strapping young man registered my information and showed me around, and while I was taking a tour while admiring his physique I noticed a bald-headed man with gray on the sides of his head, smiling at me. I smiled back, not because I wanted to entice him, but because I was new and wanted to be friendly and make friends. I was already feeling really self-conscious, because I'm not the gym type.

    Then today! Oh my god. After seeing me again, he approaches me where the lockers are. I was locking my stuff away and getting ready to listen to my iphone when he puts his arm against the wall and corners me. He asks if I'm new, he hasn't seen me before, etc. I'm pretty clueless to come-ons, but I'm not that clueless. 

    I try to back away with an embarrassed smile, afterall he could be the same age as my father. But he persists, and tells me he's been watching me since I first started a few days ago. I'm shocked, and I don't know what to do to escape him -- so I start sneezing. With the first one, he backed his head away. So I repeated the effort, but then he smiled and said, "Bless you!" 

    So then I yawned really big, not covering my mouth and scrunching my face the whole time. He gave me a puzzled expression. He then pressed his lips together, as if annoyed, and said he'd "see me around."

    It worked. Aggressive dogs or unwelcomed men, the tactic works. Although I think I would've preferred a dog. I'll have to tell my friend tonight.

    Sunday
    May272012

    Venus conjunct Pluto in relationships

    I am not an astrologer but luckily after following Susan Miller, Steve Judd and a host of other astrologers' blogs and websites, I do have a rudimentary understanding of certain aspects of astrology. One of the things I like best is understanding the aspects in relationships.

    Venus is supposed cross the sun in a week.

    For a recent relationship that confounded me, I decided to compare the birth chart of both me and my partner to figure out what the stars might tell me to give me some insight. Of course, even though the aspects were calculated, I couldn't interpret what they meant, so I had to use Linda Goodman (the godmother of modern astrology) to help me decipher all the symbols.

    I discovered that my partner's venus conjuncted my pluto and here is what Ms. Goodman had to say (mindboggling):

    Whatever the connection -- family, business, or friendship -- these three aspects (sextile, trine and conjunction) are evidence of a a deep karmic bond from numerous past associations.

    If found in the charts of lovers or mates, the bond is different and more profound. Even when occasional disagreements occur between you, whether initiated by yourself or by outsiders, it's next to impossible to separate the two of you permanently. One way or another, you'll be magnetized back together. Anyone who tries to come between you will not succeed. Even if attempts to sever the silver-blue cord between you appear to succeed temporarily, wait. You'll be back together as surely as the darkness of night is eternally banished by the sunrise and that's as "surely" as anything can be! The "grace" of this vibration can't be avoided.

    After I read that, I started to panic: If I had known this beforehand, I wouldn't have become involved with this person in the first place! But then Ms. Goodman goes on to say that it is all karmic, and I really had no choice in the matter at all. My deeds in my past life forced me to meet him in this life.

    These aspects indicate either Twin Souls or Soul Mates. Two people who were once the same individual are referred to as Soul Mates. One person was the male half of the soul and the other was the female half. As the universe evolved and man's relationship to God changed the souls were separated. They have an innate longing for the other, and both of them sense that a part of themselves is missing or incomplete. From lifetime to lifetime, these souls unite and feel the joy of completion. They find the twin half of themselves.

    Soul Mates are fully absorbed in the other, and may experience extreme tension when your emotions can't be fully expressed. The sexual chemistry between you is magnetic and deep, and was so from your first meeting. It may or may not be consummated under the sextile or trine between these two planets, but is not likely to be resisted under the conjunction (so true!).

    With any of these three aspects (especially the conjunction), you will meet involuntarily, and cannot be separated on Earth except for temporary periods. Not even death can separate you in the astral existence, because you will rush into mutual flesh rebirth to be reunited. These are powerful karmic vibrations of love, the kind of relationship called "love at first sight," which is not a fable, but attributable to karma. When apart you feel an inexpressible longing for one another, however much you may try to deny it for personal reasons. With, the sextile or trine, if you choose to postpone union until another incarnation, your mutual feelings will nevertheless be intense. With the conjunction, it's doubtful that you'll choose postponement. The ancient marriage ceremonial words "That which God hath joined together, let no man put asunder" apply to such lovers, not to all brides and grooms. Because such aspects are a precious gift from the Universe, and from the Higher Selves of the man and woman they can't be taken lightly. They require deep meditation and thoughtful analysis.

    True Soul Mates are much more complex and rare than the idea that is commonly referred to in our culture. 

    It's Sunday evening now. And I just wanted a quiet evening at my mom's; eat dinner, watch 60 minutes and then go to sleep. But this is going to stay in my mind for at least a week. In fact, I'm probably going to obsess about this all night tonight. Argh! Well, I still think knowing is better than not knowing.

    I hope my grandmother doesn't know I've been doing this, she'll scold me for practicing witchcraft.

    Enough with the random worries! If Ms. Goodman is correct, then everything was predestined and there is nothing I can really do about it, no matter how much I try to make things go the way I want them to go. In fact, the way I want things to go is already in line with what is predestined so I shouldn't even think. I guess I should think twice before I delete his photo from my desktop.

    Thursday
    May242012

    My very first love

    Do we all have that one and only that got away? I try to think about a time when I thought I had a lover who was flawless -- there was nothing about him that got on my nerves. I think really hard, and the list is by no means long, but I can't think of a time in my adult life that I felt like I met Prince Charming.

    That's not to say that I've never met Prince Charming. I did. But I was only seven years old at the time. And he, was also only seven years old. I met him at a dinner party. Of course, it was my parents who had been invited by his parents. My sister and I also went since they had two children were the same age as us, a girl and boy. 

    My sister, being five years older than me, was already into more sophisticated toys like easy-bake toy ovens, and she and my soon-to-be prince's older sister hit it off marvelously and were making batter for whatever mysterious thing they were about to bake. The boy on the other hand, introduced me to a cardboard refigerator box.

    "This is my rocket ship," he explained to me proudly. He had juiced it up as best as he could with Crayola's box of 12. When I looked at him with a puzzled expression, he led me inside the box. He then proceeded to explain that the blue circles he had drawn unevenly along the cardboard wall were buttons to help the rocket start its engine. The red buttons were the brakes. And, of course, the invisible steering wheel was what took the rocket ship out into space. Of course.

    There was a Tedddy Ruxpin already sitting in the box, staring up at me as if knowing that I had come to usurp his place. 

    "Sit here," said the boy, throwing the stuffed animal out of the box. "You'll be my co-pilot now."

    I went along, not because I believed his rocket ship would take us anywhere, but because I knew my sister wouldn't let me play with her and her new friend, and I didn't want to be alone.

    "Buckle up," he said, drawing aside a piece of cloth he had attached to an aperture in the box that served as a window. 

    At first, I didn't think he was serious. But I went along with his motions of buckling an invisible seatbelt, even making the clicking noises to pretend that the belt had latched.

    "Roger, we're ready for take-off," he said, pretending to talk into an invisible walkie-talkie. "Yep, she's here. We're all ready." As he put down his imaginary gadget, he looked at me with his eyes wide open, full of enthusiasm. And that's when the spark hit me. He wasn't just inviting me into his world, he was clearly pulling me into it.

    "All right, Ace," he said, smiling.

    "Ace?" I asked.

    "Yeah, you're, Ace, the best co-pilot in the universe. We have a very, very important mission. I can't do it without you." He then began to rapdily hit all the blue buttons. "Grab on to your steering wheel, we're heading out into the universe. Ready, count with me: ten, nine, eight, seven..."

    In those few seconds, as I said the count down with him, and clutched on to my make-believe steering wheel, staring out through the hole in the cardboard box, I really felt like I was being taken somewhere outside my own little world. I watched him carefully to heed my cues; afterall, I was Ace, now. But I was also absolutely smitten with him. He thought I was the best co-pilot, and needed me on this very, very important mission. 

    "Hey you guys! Come eat this," said my sister and his sister from somewhere beyond the cardboard box. Whatever it was that my sister had made, I knew it was toxic. I looked despairingly at my prince. He was unfazed. His expression was serious.

    "The aliens are after us," he said as grimly as a seven-year-old can. "Quick, press the super speed button, we might get lost but we need to get out of here."

    "Okay," I said, relieved that he had a solution for the sticky situation. I quickly pressed my thumb against a large black circle on the roof of the box.

    "Hold on!" he said as he made a loud vroom! with his mouth. The suspense lasted a few seconds. When he became silent, and we didn't hear another word from outside, he sat still breathing hard. Exhausted from his imagination as well as my own, I, too, was trying to catch my breath.

    "Good job, Ace," he said, turning to me.

    "Good job, to you, too," I said, shyly. We smiled at each other before he quickly poppped a kiss on my cheek.

    "Now, let's go back home," he said, more energetic than ever. I nodded eagerly, so taken by him that I couldn't speak.

    The evening ended too quickly. We said our goodbyes, reluctantly. And then, I never saw him again.

    Even though over twenty years have passed, I still haven't forgotten him. I've been in BMWs, Escalades and even a yacht, but nothing compares to the time I spent in that refrigerator box. From time to time, I do wonder where he is and what kind of man he has become. I hope with all my heart he still has that amazing imagination.

    And I wish (actually, I'm pretty sure) he has charmed some girl into his world, a lovely co-pilot. I think that's what every girl seeks for in her prince: someone who's willing to open up his world entirely to her -- cardboard box and all. Lucky girl. Whoever she is, I know she's having the ride of a lifetime.

    Sunday
    May202012

    Why loneliness is a punishment

    We're all at the mercy of loneliness. Of course, there are times when a person just wants solitude. We like to call that "peace and quiet". But loneliness forced upon you is the worst. It's like taking a technicolor film back to black and white.

    What is it about being alone that makes it almost unbearable? Everyone has their own particular reasons, but for me I think eating alone is the most miserable. There is no one to share in the pleasure of the meal. And there's no point in preparing anything good if there is no one there to appreciate it. You can say, "I'm just making it for me." But c'mon. We all know that everything tastes better if it's enjoyed with another person.

    There's a scene from the film Le Fabuleux Destin D'Amélie Poulain where the main character feels exactly what I'm trying to describe so inarticulately here. The first minute and a half of the clip shows it best. After that, it's the proverbial happy ending. Sigh! At the moment, it's my favorite scene from the movie (I have many favorite scenes from this movie).